tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-19646581.post115578362989419670..comments2024-03-09T02:32:34.549-06:00Comments on Dr. Melissa Clouthier: AIDs Elites--Longterm Survivors with HIVMelissa Clouthierhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15864991953502438461noreply@blogger.comBlogger4125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-19646581.post-1155853516018734412006-08-17T16:25:00.000-06:002006-08-17T16:25:00.000-06:00Dear Anonymous: I am so sorry for your pain and l...Dear Anonymous: I am so sorry for your pain and losses. Please know that you are not alone even though it may seem like it. Someone recently told me that you can never really abandon yourself...there is always hope, always. I've not had your kind of pains and losses but certainly have had my own. I learn again and again that I am who God created, just exactly the way I am, and - it is good! If we can love ourselves, embrace ourselves, and be at peace with who we are, then somehow life gets a bit easier and life gets a little more peaceful. My thoughts and prayers are with you.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-19646581.post-1155821953003480252006-08-17T07:39:00.000-06:002006-08-17T07:39:00.000-06:00I just thought of something. Maybe happiness has n...I just thought of something. Maybe happiness has nothing to do with it. Maybe it is being congruent with the will to live.<BR/><BR/>Some people upon hearing HIV adopt the same fatalism and futility (outwardly or inwardly) as cancer patients. They view it as a death sentence and so it is.Melissa Clouthierhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15864991953502438461noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-19646581.post-1155821748108709482006-08-17T07:35:00.000-06:002006-08-17T07:35:00.000-06:00I am so sorry for your losses. Congratulations on ...I am so sorry for your losses. Congratulations on getting clean. It seems to me that somewhere between denial and obsession there is a solid place in between that allows a person's body to do what needs to be done to fight the virus. <BR/><BR/>There are some people who just don't get colds or sick, either. Hardy, resiliant people.<BR/><BR/>With AIDs specifically, many of the sufferers are <I>consumed</I> with shame. Literal mortification (dying) of the flesh. This emotion is destructive for non-AIDs patients. For AIDs patients, it's deadly.Melissa Clouthierhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15864991953502438461noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-19646581.post-1155796632705271822006-08-17T00:37:00.000-06:002006-08-17T00:37:00.000-06:00I have been positive since 1989, almost 17 years t...I have been positive since 1989, almost 17 years this December. I am not sure if I can say that I have been happy the entire time. I have lost a lover of 11 year, lost my father and a best friend, slef medicated myself with hard drugs (speed)for 6 years, been clean for 4 years now and those years were very hard times and very unhappy times in my life. I started taking AZT and whatever came along next then took 5 years off my HIV meds. So as you can see I can't say that happiness had to do anything with it. I do agree with you on one point, I have never been consumed with being positive, I do not read about every new thing that is out there and other than taking my meds daily, visiting my doctor every 3 months for blood work I am not consumed by it and it does not run/rule my life.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.com